compassionste witness in Riverdale

So in my life I have been lucky lately that I have many compassionate Witnesses that C my struggle I feel as though without them I wouldn’t be able to see invalidate the challenges that I go through I guess it’s also great because in a way it’s not as though I go to them and I tell them my story in my life my struggles you know where there may be a possibility that I am trying to find sympathy or exaggerated you know or want or need something from them it’s more as though they see it because they notice me and they see beyond my parents which is usually pretty well put together I’m usually quite happy when I go out in public I don’t usually tell anyone really how I feel or what’s going on these people are able to see through that and notice and want to notice not just because they have too much time on their hands but because the mascara to a certain extent about me as a person to witness the bull s*** I go through one of them would be my ex boyfriends neighbor who has been quite outspoken about the relationship me and I’ll have and normally that would be quite annoying to me for someone to be nosy and stick their business their nose into my business but I guess for me it’s not too much because I’m so isolated and it’s good to know that someone else can validate his behavior towards me since his friends are so against me and either quiet about what he does and how I feel to protect him or because they don’t care so it’s nice to see someone else is able to see the dynamics at play without me going to them or seen anything or really witnessing anything really dramatic which would be very easy for anyone to see but a lot of time because me and him have such an unhealthy dynamic and he’s so abusive towards me a lot of what he does is very subtle and lately I haven’t seen too much of him so there’s obviously something else going on for him that he’s doing that I don’t know about so it’s nice that even though he treats me badly and I am still quite alone that someone can see you know what’s going on. My grandma’s another one and I think my grandma is so apathetic towards me is because she lives in quite a similar situation and I see the helplessness of her situation where at this point I don’t think she will be able to move at the end of her life to somewhere where she feels more at home in familiar and comfortable with and I guess I see her and I start to think about my own situation and how if I stay where I am I could end up like her at this point and I feel helpless in your situation because I wish there was more I could do but the same time I don’t think my grandma has it in her or she’s 21 willing to really push for what she needs and also not having the proper support around her to push her to make the decision that she needs to do at this point I’m really unsure about our situation I worry about her and I think about it but I don’t really know what to do I don’t know if there’s much I can do and I’m kind of mad at my mother that she’s put her in the situation where she’s isolated and no one sees her because I can relate to it and luckily I’m younger and stronger and more resourceful and have a little bit more people around me to make this move if I need to I mean not if when regardless of whether my mom supports me or not I have a whole life ahead of me that I really want to put to use and I don’t want to spend it miserable and unhappy and relying on my ex to make the neighborhood in the community for me if I can’t get it from him I need to go find it somewhere else it hurts me that my ex cant accept me for who I am.