that's not the reason in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

ok so to be completely honest.
so, for the longest time the reason i wouldn’t let my dad in was cause i was angry w/ him. for not doing what he should’ve like fuk 10 yrs. ago. and while i’m still angry w/ him that’s not the reason i won’t let him in. no now i won’t let him in cause i’m scared. i’m scared of having that warmth. of having that kindof dad i could’ve had. when there’s so much history of him not being there regardless of why. i’m also afraid of him hurting me.