the alcohol thing worked out/the gripping reality of depression in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

yeah so member how I was all worried about drinking steph’s booze? well if you don’t I was. cause I don’t remember her telling me I could.
well. it’s not that I don’t remember it. it’s that. the memory apparently never formed in the first place due to my depression. yeah we were talking about the alcohol thing on.........um tues. and she said she knew I had one and i’m like ‘well I don’t remember you saying I could’ ‘no I said you could’. oh. you know. usually a day or 2 later i’ll remember what the person said. like oh yeah I remember now. but not this time.
god that’s kindof sad. i’m scared to think of what else happened that. I didn’t form the memory of. see at least if there are other people there during the event they can tell you what happened. but if there aren’t then. well that won’t work of course. the point of this entry isn’t to go on about it. the point is to. um. say that it’s sad and also it’s the gripping reality of depression it’s part of my depression.