no i didn't read it in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

this is from the 2nd:

‘sometimes. jenn or steph will give me notes. to read. and I don’t. read them right away if at all. cause of my anxiety. i’d rather we sit down together and make a list of the things to go over and we each have a copy. but I don’t know how willing they are to do that. and even if they are a part of me doesn’t want them to be cause. um. if they did that i’d be uncomfortable. also bc I haven’t been v. nice to them I don’t know that they’d be willing. like well you haven’t been nice to us so why would we do this for you? and even if they’re willing to. a part of me. thinks people should be harder on me than they are even though I don’t want that. well. I like the idea of it better than the actual thing.

and so earlier today when jenn, steph & I were in the kitchen talking about the plate thing. jenn’s like ‘did you even read the note?’ ‘yeah’ [um. no] ‘what’s the first thing it says on there?’ ‘to wake up at 11’. honesty the only reason I figured this out was cause she’d mentioned it when we were in the kitchen. I don’t know that telling her I hadn’t read the note would help anyone. she might find out anyway but I hope she doesn’t. ‘