well that was. awkward and cut a little too close in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

this is actually from. the 5th which was yesterday:

‘yeah so on um tues. my dad came and picked me up from my appt. so we’re sitting there in the car and he tells me his theory about why I don’t take baths. and he’s like ‘well my first thought was that something had happened while you were.........’ in. there. well it hadn’t.

no the reason I don’t take them at my mom’s is actually bc of my dad. er rather bc i’m afraid that when I smell all good and flower-y he’ll do something to me. in the realm of SA. only 2 peopleknow this. and it’s weird cause he’s the only guy I feel that way towards. and when we were sitting there after he tells me this i’m thinking ‘no it’s bc of you actually’.

yeah so I got this new body wahs. well actually my sister got it for me. it smells like bed linens. so now before I go to my mom’s i’ll use that one. that way I don’t smell all pretty and flower-y. and my dad won’t want to.........do.........that. even though he never has I don’t trust him not to which doesn’t make a whole lot of sense. yeah it might be all in my head as they say but it stems from a v. real place. ‘