Long time coming! in Majimaze Musing!

Hi there everybody!I figured its about time I wrote an entry before you wrote me off!I do hope you will still read me anyway.I always note Gypsy Spirit so those who read Polz wll be aware I haven’t dissappeared!I trust you are well and content.
That is me nowadays.I have come to the conclusion that it is I who have changed.As one does as one ages.Once I was into everything, including peoples’ faces,now I am happy to be a spectator,a supporter and only involve myself with a few organisations.I guess I am weary of conflict and confrontation,having weathered a few major life-lessons and learnt from them over the last nearly 4 years since my daughters marriage broke up and her heart attack and the realisation that a BIG mistake she made over 4 years ago, along with the two other events affects the entire family,including an aging parent.
That is one of the reasons I haven’t written regular entries.I have spent a long time processing all these major events and my lessons learnt and have come out the other end,a little wiser and definitely not as confident or assured and that while you are busy doing your own thing, othermembers of your immediate family and friends and their lives are falling apart.
So I now ,quite of my own free will,live a much smaller life and do you know what?I am enjoying it!!I am aware of the change in my attitude only when others comment on it!I thought I would comment on this as several events lately have brought it to my notice that some of this small community actually thought I had left the Island!That is weird!
I have had to do this for a few very good reasons.I got into debt, to the tune of some thousands of $$ and only now am starting to see light at the end of the tunnel,with the wonderful help,patience and humour of an empathetic budget advisor.Thats what happens when you ignore some of the aspects of life you don’t like..It runs away with you!So I grabbed hold of the reins of the runaway horse and got on track and altho I am still paying off some old ‘stale’ bills, I should be free by Christmas.My spending has crunched right down.I don’t pretend to be some thing I am not,and don’t court public acclaimation because it can so easily turn around and bite you on the backside.Also I came face to face,literally, with the fact that altho YOU have moved on,others haven’t!
For the last four years,my daughter and I have been persecuted by 2 members of one family.It all has to do with the big mistake enny made 4 years ago and their perspective on it.I am not going to tell you her business.She readily confessed and was ready for the consequences, which didn’t happen!Well, they tried to!No law involved.Instead of the law, she was blackmailed by the people involved!!She was very quick with reparations,apologies etc,however, they wanted more, and as a result,THEY broke the law!I tell you it was super weird and terrifying!So we consulted a lawyer.This was before the heart attack and separation.He still has an open file.We had all the documentation etc.He anted us to sue.We had to go with Penny because she didn’t want that and she was truly killing herself with stress.She nearly suceeded.Slowly but surely she recovered,and altho still a solo mother,she has risen like a phoenix from the ashes of the old life and is different,like me, as a result.We were both so similar,very upfront etc.
Well for the last 4 years,every now and then in VERY public places,we would be harassed and abused by the 2 women in the family.Either when we were together of singly.And the same with them!It was ghastly.Supermarket ,carparks ,shops,you name it!In your face abuse.We did and said nothing!Didn’t engage, didn’t react!Until recently.I am an avid reader.however, cannot afford to buy books so attend the Library,our brand new wonderful Library once a week.I read 2-3 books a week and take out glossy magazines aswell.I am an ex- Librarian and know most of the current Librarians.II LOVE my Library!It is like my sanctuary.Well, a month ago,the older woman stopped me in my Library and abused me and included my daughter in a very loud voice.I was shocked and then ANGRY!She was so close to me she spat in my face!I stared over her shoulder and ignored her and said ‘Excuse me’ and she abused again.I finally got free,not before I had to struggle not to hit her.A Librarian saw and heard it all and asked me if I was OK.I thanked her and left.I got outside nearly vomiting and shaking like a leaf.I sat down on the steps to stop falling and decided that was it.No more.So I went home and told Penny my decision and asked her permission to involve the police.The next day she said yes.Remember at the time, no police had been involved.I would have to tell the entire back story.It took 2 weeks and many prayers and soul searching to get my courage up.I have had nothing to do with police in my life except on other peoples’ behalf.So, I rang and made an appointment and when there asked for an officer and told the receptionist had to make and official complaint.She wanted to know more.I din’t want to say much,however, managed to convince her that I was genuine.Then a youngish officer came in and took overI had said it would take a while,and then started .It was a huge relief.I told him about the open file and gave him permission to call the lawyer.Over an hour later and with him having a huge pile of notes he reassured me that he would act.I said all myself and my family wants is peace.Only if the abuse and harassment continued would we go further.He kept in touch and finally rang two days later ad said we were now in the system, all the facts verified by the lawyer and he had visited the women involved and given them an official warning.Since then I have not seen the older woman at all, and only seen the younger one and she went red in the face and looked away.We are protected by the law.If it ever happens again,we ring the police immediately.
I am SO relieved and proud of myself.I had told him that I nearly hit the woman and that frightened me.
So, I guess, I had better end this!Yes, it is all about me and I risk losing your interest, however, these are the obstacles that have stopped me writing.I am now content that I have protected my family and myself and My HUGE thanks go to my darling older daughter Janet who listenend and loved as did my dear friend Polly and another close friend and the courage of my lovely Penny who had her mistakes laid bare and survived it all,And to the policeman who was so patient and thorough and empathetic.And to all of you if you are reading this for your forbearance.
Next time ,it WON’t be all about me.I promise.Lots of love and hugs
Majimazexxxxxxx