i care but. i avoid it cause it scares me. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

this is from june 18th: ‘er.

like ok. so in like oct. I think it was my former mentor Jessica’s house burned. and I didn’t think about it a whole lot. bc. fire. has always scared me. and if something really serious like that scares me. well. um. while everyone was talking about it. and they’d bring it up it’s like ‘ok this is the thing i’m trying to avoid thinking about’. I don’t think thinking about that would help.
if that makes sense.
so it’s not the act of caring that i’m afraid of. it’s the act of caring about certain things. cause what if they happen to me? I’ve never been in a fire and I don’t like thinking about that for the reasons already gone over. ‘