oh wow. depression and blogging. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

this is again from june 22nd:

‘yeah so steph wants me to open up to her. I’ve already gone over why I don’t. so.
um so..........

I don’t know if she wants me to blog. she knows I have a blog but she’s never seen it. um. and idinno. I now feel like i’m somehow abnormal for blogging and not wanting to open up. like there’s something wrong w/ me. it might be just a feeling but again feelings have a lot ofpower. like a lot. and I feel like opening up to her would be good enough and since I don’t. I don’t feel like i’m good enough. which contributes to my depression’