i don't care if she knows it or not she still should in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

unless i’m wrong which idinno I might be.

so. a few times I’ve felt like fear is being used to motivate me which I don’t think is healthy. and my friend mark agrees. and alexis agrees. but no one seems to care. and people know it’s happening. people on fb and the people who said this. well ok the people being Jennifer the yelling lady. which is funny cause they’re the ones who are all about health and safety. or maybe they’re actually not. yeah they say they are but people say a lot of thigs and it’s so easy to talk.
and today when my mom and i were talking I even told her something like ‘I don’t think it’s healthy’. and she’s like ‘well what you’re doing isn’t healthy either’. [I think she meant the fact that i’mnot always responsible and that i’m tenacious as hell]. not even ‘you’re right it’s not’. she sure as hell didn’t come to my defense about it not that I remember. maybe i’m wrong but I thought that’s what a mom’s supposed to do. or just even acknowledge that it’s not.
and right now I don’t care if she knows that or not. I don’t want to be understanding about this. being that I already know her side I don’t need to be told what it is. i appreciate people putting a positive spin on it but don’t.
just like wow.