Who really needs money? in Boredoms

Time once again for an update. Let’s see…for those of you familiar with my life, things between Roxy and I are pretty lukewarm. I’m not really sure she’s very into me anymore. But, about a week ago, I met Allison and she most definitely is. But Allison is more serious, she’s playing for keeps. I discussed the “I’m never going to want to have children” deal with her off the bat and, while she’s on the fence regarding children, it didn’t seem to deter her. Nor did many of my other less-popular traits. I like her a great deal but her intensity is a little scary. I don’t know if I could ever be married to someone…it’s a not a commitment issue so much as a multitude of different concerns. I could never afford an engagement and wedding rings, first off. I make dirt for money. I don’t like the notion of big, expensive weddings. I can’t put it very eloquently…I just think the industry is shit.

She’s a therapist, which is cool. I worry that her being a career person and me having my dead-end job that I like because of its flexibility so I can do acting stuff will eventually make me seem like a dead beat. I mean, guys without a solid, high-earning career can never really be appealing right? She may not mind it now but…down the road? Also, I don’t see me having enough to keep someone interested for years and years. It hasn’t happened so far, anyway. Some people would say a third option would just be to see who else is out there but I doubt I have the luxury of hoping there will be anybody else out there who’s interested so this may be my last chance.

Anyway.

I got headshots done on Saturday. It was free with a suggested donation of 20 bucks (which I paid, of course). I’m excited to get those. The same company that provided this opportunity also has a “general audition” coming up in July where various representatives from local theaters come and see who they might want to poach for their shows. I’m excited. They also have a “trial audition” the week before which gives people a chance to get feed back on their monologues. I’m looking forward to it. My friend Jackie is also directing a show in a one-act showcase I plan to audition for (I won’t be able to be in hers since it’s all women but there are others).

So July should be exciting.