Colic Venting Sunday, December 14, 2008
I am so exhausted from her crying. She is crying now. Will be crying later. And will probably be crying for the next 3 hours. I had a break for a few days, but last night she started her episodes again. I tried so hard to keep her awake for most of the day so she would sleep tonight, but it didn't help at all. I am scared to death that this isn't going to done by when I go back to work. How am I going to not get any sleep at night and work 8 hours a day? This is so frustrating! She cries from about 6pm to 3am. It's non stop crying from 11pm to 3am. My nerves are shot. I just want her to sleep! I can't sleep until she does. I am getting no sleep because if I want to eat or shower I have to be up before her which is about 7am to 9am depending on how lucky I am. Four hours sleep every night for the last 2 months is NOT enough. I really feel like I could strangle someone. I am going to have to call my mom again for help. I HATE THIS. I want to do this on my own. I got myself here, and I can't even take care of her on my own. Why does she have to have colic?? WHY!? She screams and screams and the only people that truly understand are people that have had a colicky baby. People that haven't had one think that I am just exagerating and that "all babies cry." They don't understand that I am not exagerating the crying. I am going insane. I am trying so hard every night to get her to sleep. I rock her for HOURS. I get her calmed down, just to have her start crying 3 minutes later. I lay her down and she sleeps for 3 minutes and starts screaming again. She cries so hard she can't breathe. She makes herself spit up. I rock her. I bounce her. I cuddle her. I wipe her tears. I talk to her. There is nothing that takes away her pain. Sometimes it's just too hard. Like now. I can't do it right now. I can't hold her. I just rocked her for an hour and had her calm in the crib... for 3 minutes. SHe was sleeping for 3 minutes. Now she is screaming. I have no idea why. There isn't a reason. Oh I know... there is always a reason. Well I have NO idea what it is, other than gas. I have to go. I have to go calm her down for the next hour, so that I can lay her down and have her cry 3 minutes later.
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I didn't have a colicky baby, but I have no doubt that it must feel like Hell. I really hope she grows out of it soon. (((hugs))) to you both. I hope you get some well-earned rest! [Mommy2Katie] 12/15/2008 12:14:32 AM
i do hope it eases soon. i suggest finding a message board for support because those people may have great suggestions for you that will help [muted exposure] 12/15/2008 12:22:58 AM
I'm sorry your baby is crying. I know it's hard. My baby cried a whole lot too. I remember not sleeping for 2 days straight. All you want to do is cry yourself and make everything go away. Things will get better. Just keep your head up. hugs [prettylittlekitty] 12/15/2008 12:39:55 AM
It has been 42 years since I had a baby but I remember how frustrated I got and I didn't have a colicky baby. My nephew had 3 month colicky and I remember that, I was only 18 at the time but I remember my mother, his mother and daddy and myself walking the floor with him, they lived just a few blocks down the street from my parents.
Please call your mother, no new mother should try to do this alone, as you know it is very nerve wracking and the more anxious you are, the more that is transferred to the baby, especially if she is nursing. Having some help is not giving up or being defeated, it means you are human and not super human which none of us are.
Have you talked to her pediatrician?
If I were close I would certainly help you but I'm in Texas.
Hang in there, we are thinking of you, I know it doesn't help.
[BJ.]
12/15/2008 12:59:35 AM
hugs I'm sorry this is so hard for you Shannon.
[OddJohn] [p]
12/15/2008 7:31:46 AM
new reader. Our daughter has colic and Hyland Colic tablets work awesome!! We got ours at walmart [kluelessKarla] 12/15/2008 11:14:08 AM
Colic is so hard! Yes, "all babies cry", but generally you know how to fix it. There is no answer for colic. And you want to make your baby feel better. Nothing can make you feel more incompetent. I'm so sorry she's not feeling better. Did you have a chance to look into the belly bands? Please let me know if there's anything I can do for you even though I'm far away. [gerontologee] 12/15/2008 3:24:56 PM
I'm so sorry she's in pain. I hope she gets through it fast and you get some sleep! [Ark's Dream] 12/15/2008 5:06:43 PM
Have you tried not eating dairy products? I read somewhere that sometimes it can cause colic in babies being breast feed. [~teak~] 12/15/2008 6:57:07 PM
just stumbled on your diary randomly, and have only read this entry so some of this might have been covered already, but........
i have a 6-year old daughter who had colic so bad i thought my ex-wife and i would lose our minds. 6 months of screaming from 4pm-midnight every day. it was awful. and you're right, you feel helpless.
anyway, have you tried white noise at all? running the vacuum cleaner helped soothe my daughter. in fact we let it run in place for so long it left burn marks on the carpet......but drastic times call for drastic measures.
oh, and i wanted to punch many a person for feeding me the 'all babies cry' nonsense. most people just don't understand.
hang in there. [Loan Starr] [p]
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