it's at a 9 today. for the first time in. months really. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

my depression. it’s at a 9 today instead of an 8. er I mean a 10 instead of . er. no wait. so it’s been at a 10 but it was at a 9 today. yeah there we go.

and I didn’t do a whole lot. um. we had a fire drill. ok so I had one. it’s just for me. kris and jenn don’t have them since they’re not living in a host home just a house. [well my house but jenn’s one of the providers that’s what they’re called ‘host home providers’ and kris isn’t in the business, so]. that was the most interesting part of my day. I blogged, did some math. I didn’t watch tv cause mine isn’t working. I thought about yesterday and steph and evan a bit. and dinner which i’m almost done w/. er i mean almost done eating. at 9 p.m. um. I did some stuff w/ my fanfic.
yesterday was good. I got. really emotional near the end. it’s been. almost 5 months since my great uncle passed. idinno just something else I was thinking about.
oh but. I haven’t been under my blanket. [which even though it’s nto actually wool I say it is cause it’s itchy and wool’s itchy, so. actually so’s lace]. like so usually i’m under my blanket to block out seeing things in my periphs. and today I wasn’t. even though my blinds weren’t open I could still see the sun. oh I never open my blinds. idinno maybe that’s why it was a 9. could be.