Check Day in New Diary

Anne and I got out again today. Connie picked us up at 8:30. She took us to the bank. This time it was my turn to do my banking. I left $120 in checking to cover Comcast. Then I got a money order for $241.75 to cover my rent. With my banking done we went to Wal Mart.

I put $370 on my debit card. Then we did some shopping. I bought a case of pop and ten boxes of pasta salad mix. Anne bought some stuff as well. We waited outside for Connie. It was a nice day and we didn’t have long to wait. Connie took us home.

After putting away my groceries I made a few phone calls. I called Rent A Center. I made my computer payment of $128.25. Then I went to the B&N website. I placed an order for a NOOK and one year protection plan for $126.09. I bought the NOOK.

I felt like shit yesterday. Anxiety was way high. I think anxiety was so high I made myself sick. I had diarrhea all afternoon. As usual I was worried over nothing. I was worried about my B&N account. I thought they would not get their money for the books I purchased. But I checked my debit card account and yes they did go through I was worried about budget. But I had enough money to pay my bills, pay the rent and buy food for the month and get my meds. I make myself sick from worrying over nothing .

Yes I was in a very bad place. In my diary yesterday I said all I want to do is kick back and read books. This is not true. I have a fiancé. She is very much a part of my present and soon to be a big part of my future. She is more important to me than a room full of books and all the NOOKS in the world. I never want to forget the fact that my fiancé is number one in my life now and forever.