There's a reason I'm single in Boredoms

It’s because I’m an idiot. It’s because I’m 30 and I act like a fucking child. I had another date with Roxy today after work and I fucking blew it. She had talked before about how much she liked Final Fantasy X but had never been able to play it all the way through so I thought she’d enjoy coming over to my place and playing it for a few hours or so. For a fucking second date that’s what I propose. God, I spent so much of my pathetically single life thinking there should be a more comfortable alternative to normal dating procedures and I never stopped to think there’s a reason why things are like that: because no girl wants to play fucking video games on a second date you dumb fuck! What the fuck is wrong with me? After an hour and a half she started feeling dizzy and needed me to take her home…I don’t believe she was faking at all but I do think her body knew she needed an escape and gave her just that. The worst part is I kept trying to cuddle with her while she was playing despite the fact it should have been obvious to me she didn’t feel like it. I mean, who fucking does that so early in? A dumbass man-child who doesn’t know what the fuck he’s doing. Now we’ve devolved to the point where she will only hang out at her place and if her roommate isn’t there and I get a feeling that won’t be often. If she gives me another shot I need to act like a fucking adult.