so, moving forward. alexis news. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so alexis said she’d talk to some people at her work and see if they’re available. well apparently my mom emailed steph. and now steph knows. so I guess that now amber and them are going to see if they have someone.
which honestly I don’t want them to. not cause I don’t want people doing nice things for me. no that’s not how I mean it. no I mean. as in. cause then someone else will be involved. via amber’s company. [well not her company exactly the company she works for]. my mom was the one who found alexis. see my mom talked to her hairdresser julia who talked to someone she knows who found alexis. and I liked that cause then it was just alexis my mom and I. instead of this new person and amber..........and Hannah..........steph. my mom and I. I want there to be less people involved via amber’s company not more.
so i’m really hoping my mom/alexis will be able to find someone. and not amber and them. i’m a really private person and i’m not trying to expand my world in that way.
it’s like back when I was going to the bar. I had my bar friends my bar life and then I had my life w/ my mom. and they never mixed. and that’s what I liked about it is that they didn’t mix. until my mom met my ex. but until a few months after my ex and I broke up my mom didn’t know exactly how we met. she knew we met at a show [which well we did]..............it just wasn’t downtown. yeah and I didn’t tell her we met at a bar for a reason. I wish she still thought we’d met downtown.