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I sit here in ththe lobby of the medical center where I attend counseling. I missed my session today, it was an hour earlier than I thought.

Well, actually I thought next week’s session was the 3:30 session. Every other one is supposed to be at 4:30.

I feel somewhat devastated. Kinda crushed. I don’t know why. Guess I have come to depend on these sessions.

I cried. No biggie, really. I cry easily. But I am surprised that I feel this way.

Somewhat I feel disappointed in myself because I do not make mistakes like this. I would not have offered to babysit the tough detention group after school if I had known....

Stupid reason to beat myself up, really.

These are the things that Kevin would have put me down for. Make me (or try) to make me feel that there was something wrong with me for missing an appointment. While I was good at standing up for myself in this situations, I would even like to say that they did not affect me, but by my reaction....I think they did.

Plus just plain being hard on myself.

Ok, my option is now 5:30 level 2 yoga. I really need it.

Last updated May 12, 2015