15-05.10.95 in Book Two: The Fifteenth Year of the Third Millennium of the Common Era

Gah! This is so weird! I keep sitting down to take care of my To-Do Lists and… then… nothing. I hate even explainable subconscious bullshit. Obviously, I am freaked out about “The Next Step” even though I don’t realize I’m freaked out but every time I sit down to perfect all of my resume and cover letter and all of that… I just… I find so many other things I need/want to do… and somehow wind up doing none of them! As many times in my life as I’ve wished to be Jamie Madrox; this may be the first time I’ve wanted those powers for the single purpose of sitting myself down and having a very direct heart-to-heart about getting important shit done. Ultimately, that is why Chapter 1 has been so delayed… it is why I haven’t accomplished anything on Video Games or Social Life… I think my brain got so used to Limbo that now that I’m out… I still haven’t processed it fully. Crappy retail jobs after college for 4 years; 3 years of law school; it took a full year after law school to be licensed… and now it is go time. 8 years of waiting and… I’m struggling to even get out the door?

So… I printed all of the resumes I need and taken care of everything BUT the cover letters. The letters carefully written out to sound professional, capable and competent. Without sounding too much like a desperate crazy man who passionately wants/needs to get hired! Of the places looking… three locations would be ABSOLUTELY perfect. One location is 60 minutes from my parents’ house. So… close enough to visit but not close enough to justify “pop overs.” One location is two hours from my parents but two hours from Wife’s parents. So… instead of being ass far away from one set; we’ll be equi-distant. One location is two hours from my parents’ but one hour from Wife’s parents. It is just… I really want one of these to work out. But… the way Lawyer Hiring goes these days… it isn’t likely that I will get one of these to work out. But I really want it to. But it won’t if I don’t even send them out, lol. I did get other stuff done, though. Thank You Cards, Mother’s Day Phone Calls (in addition to cards that were sent out Wednesday), dishes (full load and half of another), got some laundry started. So… it hasn’t been a wasted day… just… not as productive as I would have preferred.

I’ll say it right now: I’m not very well pleased with the Ch. 1 recording. It seems too long with too many errors. In fact, it may also be one of the more boring chapters… but it is necessary for the point. Y’see… as I said, this book is why I refuse Zach Snyder’s Superman. And in order to reject an entire concept of a character; that means this book tried to encapsulate the entire concept of a character… the Comic Book Superman. And in order to do that… it wanted to share the history. Clark being picked up, adopted… the essential relationship with his parents… even rescuing the NASA vessel that contained a beautiful reporter named Lois. And of course… the man who is Superman. A man who knows but struggles with the reality that… he honestly CAN’T do everything, be everything… he has limitations. And like the best mid-west Families… when he struggles with his limitations, he seeks counsel from his parents. THAT is this chapter:

Which… okay… I may not be able to do this. I did the Chapter One reading and uploaded it to the site… and when I say upload I mean… attempted. Apparently, it was 156 MB of data… and after 4 hours, the site had only uploaded 2.4 MB of information. So… either that site or this plan may need serious re-thinking :/