I can't even... in A Day in the Life of Me

....begin to describe how frustrated and aggravated with myself I am over everything. EVERYTHING!
From the way my budgets are flopping at work and not being able to make my days, to my personal debts and how hard it is getting for me to pay any of it down.
Working 1 job at 35ish hrs a week, and paying all the bills and buying all the food, pretty much cleans out my check the day I get paid.
(And he had the nerve to complain the other night when I told him there was a bunch of house work I needed him to do when he was over his cold.)
I haven’t had a girls night out in forever. Was planning one forever for next weekend, but will once again have to cancel it as I haven’t a dime to go out with. As it is, my dad put $50 in my account so that we could go get a few necessities seeing as rent and gym cleared out my acct this week.
I keep debating on cancelling my membership, its not a lot compared to some, its only $27 every 2 weeks, so its pretty manageable, just if I get a second job, I most likely won’t have any time to go.
And I DO need to get a second job, so that I can work on get my debts paid off.
I WANT to get it all paid off, I WANT to take my photography course, I WANT to make sure that our friend M is paid off asap, I feel horrid that D won’t have his bike on the road this summer, but I have to many other things to spend that $400+ dollars on then rego and insurance on a bike he can’t even put gas in because he can’t work. It’s not a fair situation for either of us, but he hasn’t really helped as I told him time and time again that we needed to put money aside that he came over with originally. We would have this already done. We wouldn’t be stressing, he would be working and I might be closer to having shit paid off.
I love him to pieces, I really truly do, I would not have married him if I hadn’t, but oh my gods he really pushes my bloody buttons some days....