Shouldn't have done that... in Boredoms

So, I watched the video of Judas I got on Monday and it…was odd. I didn’t like myself at all. I went into it trying to see me the way everyone has been saying I was but I couldn’t. I sounded so flat and nasally and it was uncomfortable. I told a friend about this reaction and she said I just have a bias against myself and so that’s why it sounded like that to me. I’m trying very hard to hold on to that, to try and take my own opinion out of this and just trust the others who have told me I was good. I just can’t get rid of that nagging voice that’s telling me they’re just being nice because they think I’m pitiful or whatever. (Sigh) What the fuck, me?