~What are you holding on to?~ in Tales of being me.

There’s this guy that comes in to my work a few times a day for orders, he asked for my number quite a few times ago last year, but I always said no. He wasn’t really my type, he has kids, I wasn’t ready to give up my single life etc etc anyways during my attempt at dating with the dude in the previous entry I felt in my heart that I was ready to get back in the dating scene, I had signed up for a couple dating websites but that’s not really my thing lol I’ve used them before but mostly for hook ups back in my young, dumb & full of cum years lol.
Anyways I told my friend that knew that he had been trying to get my # that if things didn’t work out with former dude, then I would give him my #. What did I have lose? At the least I knew he was a nice guy,with a cute grin. I was thinking that at the very least we would have a nice date or we’d be friends. He was bold in his initial approach and was consistent, which I kind of liked because no guy had ever tried so hard to try to get my attention. He had worn me down a bit he sent one of my fave girls over one day after he left to try to convince me to give him a chance, it was pretty cute lol
So another random day at work, knowing my friend would ask me if I had done it yet, I decided to do it and get it over with I walked up to him slipped him a note with my # and jokinngly said ” now you can stop harassing me” and just walked away.
He called me that night but I was sleeping, so I texted him in the morning and then we just started talking via text for the next few days, he asked me out on a proper date * super adorable* so we made a plan to go for dinner that Saturday night. Well the friday before the date I guess he had a dozen red roses delivered to work for me, but I was OFF!! They ended up re delivering them to on Monday, but the whole time on our date I didn’t have a clue. So anyways, he picked me up and we went out for dinner, I didn’t know where we were going but we went to a pub that some of my family lives near that I’ve frequented with them in the past. 20 minutes into our date my mom and step dad walked in. I laughed so fucking hard, they live like 40 mins away so I was in no way expecting to see them there lol It was pretty funny, I kind of got off and cut them off before they could come over, because It was to early for those kind of introductions thankfully they were cool with it and just saw away from us and didn’t come over or anything. awkward though holy hahah He handled it pretty good though lol so the date was ok, there weren’t sparks or anything, but I thought it was adorable that he told me he was super nervous, it had been a very long time since he had been out on a date. I also thought it was super adorable, that he drove out of his way to come and pick me up to bring me back over to the other side of town for dinner. At the end of the date he asked me for a a hug, and that pulled at my heart strings, I’m so used to fast guys. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and he said he would ask me out again and I told him I would probably say yes.. and the rest they say is history. We got to talking, due to our schedules we spent the first couple weeks after the date just talking via text, he quickly captured my attention and I realized just how awesome he actually is and how amazing he makes me feel. By the time we had our second date which was me just going over to his place to hang out and see where he lived and shit.. We just sat there for the longest time cuddling and talking on the couch. By the time the third date came around, I wanted to kiss the lips off of him.
In a way we are taking things slow, no actual sex yet, but yes to oral sex lol Friday he took the day off work because I had the day off and we spent the day eating fruit off each other’s bodies and laying in bed talking. I also looked through all his old pictures, hes so adorable. MY heart is swollen and I have never felt like this IN MY LIFE. He’s fallen hard for me too, he’s told me, he gave me this beautiful gold necklace for my bday, a heart in a heart. I just love it, but the best part was the card he got me, he wrote this beautiful letter inside, it made my heart melt, and if I hadn’t of been sure before that, that definitley made me sure. He told me he loved me last week and said I know we’re taking things slow and this is probably way to fast..but when you know, you know. and I was just so happy. not scared, not freaked out, not to excited…just in love and happy. He’s met my parents, my friends, my sister.. I’ve met his brother and some of the people he works with. Next weekend I think I may be going to meet his kids… two boys, I know right! For someone who said no dating anyone with kids lol I’m soo exctied to meet them.
Life is crazy. I haven’t stopped smiling for the last month pretty much. <3 I know this will wear off some day but I hope it’s not for a while. I just want to kiss his lips and be in his arms. For two weeks straight I couldn’t think straight, like literally, went to a business meeting with my shirt on backwards, just because my concentration was gone..out the window. buh bye. fuck this is crazy. amazing but crazy. Whatever happens, I’m going to enjoy this ride.
I just need to also note that It’s super refreshing to be with a man who communicates, when something is bothering him, he tells me, when he misses me, he tells me, he tells me he loves me all the time, looks in my eyes and tells me how beautiful I am.... I just can’t even explain all the things I like about him. He’s simple and amazing. I am so happy.