Pipe dreams in A Day in the Life of Me

It’s a pipe dream of mine, to take the Professional Photography course through New York Institute of Photography.
It’s been a dream for several years.
I WILL get there some day, but I am looking at about $1200 for course and hard copy materials, and I am totally utter crap at saving money.
So obviously there are more important financial requirements at the moment, D’s paper work most importantly, and getting out of some of my current personal debt.
It’s sad, cause to be able to sign up by a years time, I would only need to save about $100 a month, but when your the only person in the house able to work, and will be so for the next 2 years, and your scrapping pay to pay to just pay bills and live…
My one luxury at the moment is my gym membership. I’ve been considering cancelling even that. Just to maybe have a few extra bucks month to month.
I need to get a new second job, cause I am never going to get hours at the one I have. And i found out today that one of them is talking about me. She’s already had a write up about her sent through HO. If I bide my time, she’ll shoot herself in the foot, but after what someone told me today that she said about ME, I am ready to pull the trigger for her.

Feeling so blah.....