Blah...And Making My Own Jewelry in Just a wolf...

Sometimes life gets me down really badly…I don’t want to really talk to anyone, though at the same time I feel like it would help, I just don’t know who to turn to. I don’t have anyone in my life but Bat really, and not a lot of people like me very much. I’m enigmatic, a contradiction. I don’t try to be. It’s just how life goes. People really don’t like the strange.

Easter was nice…ate WAY too much candy, had a splitting headache when ( I want to say ‘coming down from a sugar high’ cause it’s basically a sugar hangover but it’s not like I actually get a “sugar high”) (screw it) I came down. Then all night I was sick. In reality, I didn’t eat that much…it’s not like when I was a kid and could eat half a pillowcase full of candy before I got sick.

I’ve been making my own ear gauges and chopping up my clothes..trying to make myself do something other than sleep all night (when I should be awake cause I sleep all day). They’re turning out amazing. I’ll be posting pics eventually, it’s just taking me some time cause I seriously been lacking in motivation lately. I went to Hot Topic (I still think the name sounds preppy, sorry) looking for lip piercings (cause I keep swallowing mine) Turns out there was a sweet deal, buy one get one for $5. So I chose my piercings then scavenged through for something for my helix piercing. I wanted a bar but they only had thick tongue piercings, she suggested studs but I really don’t want those. Then she suggested gauges, she was impressed when I showed her mine and told her I made them myself. The only reason why I’m there is cause I don’t know how to get/mold surgical steel. I need something that can be removed at will (for professional reasons if need be, which is why I wear fang caps over my teeth that are molded with thermoplastic and not actual extensions on my canines) but that is sturdy enough for me to bite down on it. I used to make my piercings (When I was 18-19) by cutting and shaping a paperclip, but I always bit the plastic coating off. I chose plastic coating because I don’t want that metal in my lip as I have an allergy to metal. Surgical steel, gold (ew) or silver are the only materials I can use in my piercings. Also, if you haven’t already guessed, if I made my jewelry I probably didn’t get my piercings done professionally. I originally had snakebites (Done myself with ice and a huge needle) but it was slightly off center so I took out the left one and let it heal. The helix was professionally done. The original holes where my gauges are were professionally done when I was young, redone in my teens and I redid them myself after that. (they closed twice over the years) The second gauge on my left ear was done by me and the tiny holes (closed now :’( ) where professional. All by the same person except for the first time I got pierced.
Now, I got really off track… OK, I slept all day and I’m ready to go to sleep again. Not good. I have to stop this. fuck. oh! COFFEEEEEEE!!!!!!