hilary and becoming a real girl. in Snippets

I met Hilary a year after I had been at the group home. Apparently he was my new social worker. I said to him that I thought Hilary was a girls name And he said he thought my name was a boys name And I said it is and he said could fooled me. Apparently this was the first he had known of me living like a girl. He was assigned my case file 6 months ago and this was the first opportunity he had to meet me. We talked about my life and basically because I was sixteen I was considered an adult in the eyes of the law but that I was still a ward til I was 18. His job was to provide me with practical help to being on my own. I asked about becoming a girl and I said I have been living as a girl for almost 4 years when do I get to be a real one. He said that would have to be something I did when I was of age. That was not something he could help with. So what do I do then. He was honest and said he didn't know. Probably if I wanted I could stay on at the group home although there is no requirement for them to keep me. Once I turn 18 I am on my own and my file closes although there are some exceptions for some additional living expenses. Basically supervised independent living but all they provided was what was allowed for singles food and accommodation for an additional six months to a maximum of a year. I said but I did everything I was told for ever I have become a girl cause that's what I was told to be. He asked me what he could do to help me but there wasn't anything I wanted from him except to be the girl I spent the last 4 years as. I didn't want to be a pretend girl anymore. We went for a walk and I admit to liking Hilary even though he couldn't help me. He listened and let me be mad. He said he would help me with starting out on my own although that's what the group home was doing. Except somewhere my file neglected to list me as being a dragqueen and girl wannabe. He said he would get back to me in two weeks time but that he had serious doubts about there being anything he could provide in way of support. I never made that meeting. I ran away.