Guilty in Random Thoughts

I know shouldn’t feel this way, but I do. I feel guilty because I am going to Eugene to get pedicures with a friend and to enjoy myself and get treated well by someone who appreciates me. I did not tell Kevin I was going, in fact, I was going to just drive him to work and say that I was dropping him off on my way to eugene for the night. But now he is sick with flu like symptoms and I know he used to hate it if he was not informed early on that I had made plans. I sit here, about 10 minutes from when I was planning on leaving, and he is in bed. I know I don’t need to tell him, and I shouldn’t feel guilty. I can do what I want (which I love, usually).

Ugh, it’s that knot of anxiety in my stomach that I hate.

And my first inclination is to just stay and take care of him....

Last updated April 11, 2015