Yet another day in paradise. in Since OD is shutting down....

I want to start off by saying thank you to everyone for your notes and support since I don’t have have much of that in the flesh!!! I love logging on and seeing so many notes and the helpful things everyone has to say, without you guys things would be a lot harder!!!

It’s been another ridiculous day in the sess pool of bullshit. I worked all fucking day (9 hours) and came home without my tips. The boss had the new guy cash me out (I can’t do it myself and still don’t get to know exactly why) and he fucked it up so I spent 20 minutes off the clock waiting for her to add everything up and she kept getting different numbers so I left all my money there and came home. I was just exhausted, hungry, and angry beyond words to even deal with it any longer.

It’s been the worst week for me and I thank god every minute of everyday that I have a new place to go to on Monday. I have completely overlooked the anxiety I will face with meeting all new people and doing new things because I am just so disgusted with my current job. I can’t stress enough how happy I am to know that I only have about 3 more days of putting up with that hell hole until I can be in a new job where I won’t have to worry about it anymore.

I have done so much thinking the past few days and just can’t believe I’ve put up with this place as long as I have. I have just gotten so used to it being short staffed, full of drama and dysfunctional that it’s just another part of my day. I also had myself convinced that because of my social anxiety that I would just stay and hopefully things will get better or I would find a great social outlet to be able to put it out of my mind which still hasn’t happened. The only person who keeps me from completely losing it is my little niece. Thank God for her because if I didn’t have her, I don’t know where the fuck I would be.

I am so thankful for this place because I’ve been there for 17 months and have been able to stand on my own 2 feet but it’s time to move on to a better paying job without people that are gonna go out of their way to make my time at work not so enjoyable and I know that I will be just fine.

Ugh, I’m just so glad that things are looking up because if I didn’t have another job lined up, I would be way more upset than I am right now. I was pretty fucking livid earlier but it’s just another reminder why I’m leaving.

Time to watch tv and get ready for another day of bullshit. I work all day again and we’ll shall see what bullshit will be in store for me tomorrow. If I don’t get all my tips from last night, I’m going to fucking lose it so hopefully it will have gotten figured out by the time I get there tomorrow or I may not even clock in. I ain’t trying to work for free so she better have figured it out.

Bedtime.