Let's try this again. in Exerbabble III

Going to try something different for a change, in terms of how I post.

It’s unfortunate that I can’t just go to the gym without some mental plan. I need to feel like I’m doing something, or going somewhere with it. I compensated for that by using really light weights. It takes longer for muscle to atrophy than we think. My strength will come back quickly. But metabolically, I know I’m quite terrible right now. Maybe metabolic isn’t the right term.

Like, I could have gone way heavier on deadlifts. I also could have probably done more on the top set. But I’m stronger than my body can handle, if that makes any sense. I’m normally pretty winded after a top set, but today I almost fainted. THAT is why I started light. Given a month, I should be back where I was before. That alone will be self-motivating.

Hard to believe a single vacation would absolutely wreck my lifting streak. Time off doesn’t suit me.

It’s unfortunate that I had to use coffee pre-workout. But after I broke myself of coffee over that week off, I just couldn’t get going in the morning. I’d rather have a slight caffeine addiction and be lifting, then not lifting at all. I was THIS close to breaking all my personal bests. I can’t express how frustrating that is, especially knowing the longer I stayed away, the longer it would take to “come back”. And that frustration lead me to not want to lift.

I’m at a point where the physical health will help the mental health. Even if it takes a billion starts and failures, I have to keep trying.