Never surprised. in Since OD is shutting down....

I honestly don’t even know what to say or how to feel anymore. I know that it would probably help if I ever got enough sleep but right now I’m really upset and depressed. So Brian text me earlier saying he wanted to see me before he went home and now supposedly the girlfriend is coming back, saying she was in the hospital or some shit. I get these text after my nap when I’m not even awake yet and it brings tears to my eyes. I didn’t bother to respond and plan to change my number after the courthouse calls to let me know my plates are in.

Ya know, I should be used to it not working out with anyone but I keep hope that eventually it will. I saw something incredible in this guy that I’ve never seen before. I could feel myself developing feelings for him but on the up side, we didn’t have sex and things fell apart right away before I could really get hurt. I’m happy we didn’t have sex or else every emotion I am feeling would be intensified by like 100. I’m absolutely devastated because i had never made such an amazing connection with someone and then things have to end up like this.

Same shit, different fucking day. I give up. I’m gonna go back to bed now.