Birthday party, Eric update! in Since OD is shutting down....

The birthday party was a pretty good time, I just got home about an hour ago. My brother, his girlfriend and my niece are staying at the hotel. We had pizza, chicken, cake and everyone went swimming! It was so much fun! I had my niece all day and bought her some more stuff at Walmart. I completely spoiled her but she’s my only baby I get to buy stuff for! I had a great time at the party but glad to be back home as I’m super tired and am looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow.

Yesterday was kinda stressful, at least until I got to work. I got a text saying that when I made my payment it didn’t process so I had to pay it again and then watch my account to make sure that only one payment will hard post! I think it’s bullshit that I paid it ahead of time and they wait until the morning after it’s due to inform me that it didn’t process?! Okay! Then I get to school where I’m struggling to stay away as I was at work until 11pm Thursday night and then I have to meet my instructor for my online computer class because my projects aren’t submitting right so I’m getting zeros for them after I spend at least 2 hours doing them. I’m currently failing this class because of this! The instructor was kinda rude and was like, “well I have 50 students that this works for so I don’t know what’s going on” which makes me feel like he doesn’t believe I’m doing the work. The one project we opened even said I spent 326 minutes editing it! He left it open so I could resubmit it tonight but it’s due than less than an hour and I know I won’t have the time, patience, or energy to try and get it in. I have another project due tomorrow that I need to sit down and do and hope to GOD it will submit properly or I’m going to come unglued! I always have one class every semester that I struggle with and it’s getting to the point where I question if I even want to continue college! I know if I drop out I will have to pay my loans back before I would be able to enroll again. I think about it all the time and just feel like if I drop out, I’m going to be stuck doing the job I’m at for a lot longer than I plan and I’m just not totally into it. It’s just hard but I’m hoping things are going to get better as I have to keep my GPA at least at 2.0 or I won’t get financial aid next semester. I can honestly say I fucking hate my computer class and dread doing the projects because the shit takes so long and then to see I got a zero because it didn’t go through properly makes me want to punch babies. I’m losing interest in this shit because I just can’t handle getting as angry as I do.

Um yeah.......Eric. He’s a fucking fruitcake and it just too similar to my ex John. He’s very overemotional, mean and I’m pretty sure bi-polar as fuck. He is so much like my ex John that I finally blocked him last night as I could feel myself about to snap. He hasn’t been that nice all week and after last night, it was time to either change my number or block him. He started with sending a text the other night (Tuesday night when I was the boss) saying I just used him and threw him away and telling me I was demanding and pouty. Ok well when I’m at work, it’s probably not the best time to be a critical asshole! I told him to leave me alone and he said that he would but then text me at 5 am saying he was thinking about me and couldn’t sleep. I write back a couple of hours later when I wake up and ask why and he says, “you stress me out” and that was just infurirating as we are just fuck buddies which means no stress whatsoever but was still trippin over me?!?!?!!? I don’t respond as I was dealing with a bunch of other shit and putting fires out like a mofo and then text me last night again about me ignoring him so I wrote back telling him I was doing homework and he responds with, “like I care” well that was the last fucking straw and I blocked him. My ex John was the same way. If he didn’t get attention like he wanted from me, he would say the same kind of shit and that’s what made me cut and run. I’m not going to head down the exact same path with someone that’s displaying the same exact things that I’ve dealt with in the past that made me so miserable and I just refuse to be miserable anymore!

I honestly believe that he just wants a girl in his life that he can argue with. I honestly sensed this about a week of knowing him but just couldn’t let go of that feeling. The way he was mean and borderline abusive made me question why I can’t find guys that are just nice and reasonable. Why are they always tryna tear someone down?!

Bedtime.