Entry 15-02.10.40 in Book Two: The Fifteenth Year of the Third Millennium of the Common Era

Editor’s Note: Actually fell asleep before hitting the SAVE button. So… here it is!)

13 Days Remaining.
Day Start:I woke up at 6 am as scheduled, grabbed an apple, and my body promptly said- “Screw this noise” and fell back asleep. FOR NINE HOURS! I woke up again at 3 pm!!! Almost the whole day wasted! Which means… in order to get the studying done that I need to, I’m going to have to try to pull an all nighter or something. Which… is next to impossible since my wife doesn’t believe in allowing me to do those. So… I’m really going to have to figure out a way to “sneak” an all nighter in tonight!

Just to shake my body out of this weird place; I went running with the wife before sitting down to go through a bunch more videos.

Our “exercise, shower, food” stretched into watching this week’s Face-Off. That’s all okay. I think. If the wife will allow me to do an all-nighter because I exercised with her and watched Face Off with her… then it was a good decision.

Though… irritatingly, I have had this insanely impressive headache all night! It starts in this amazing tightness in my shoulders, travels up the rigid neck muscles and sets up shop all up in my cranium. NOT pleasant!

As a kind of PS from a recent issue… just received a message from Bar Prep Company that, if I wanted to take my recent Raw Score and compare it to a likely score for the actual bar… just add 20 points. So… my scaled score would have been 113. In other words, close to what I got last summer but still underperforming. With that marvelous news, videos and check point quizzes!

Check Point Quiz: Trusts 54% (Flippant as it sounds, half of this guy’s 3 hour lecture was focusing on how unlikely it is to have this topic on the bar so… not only not a smart way to teach but also a good way to convince me that whatever the score, I’m not super freaked here).
Secured Transaction Video (3.5 hours) and Check Point Quiz: 68% (A little worried here. This feels, much like Trusts, to be banking knowledge heavy. Something I rather lack.)
Agency (2 Hours) and Check Point Quiz: 75% (Considering how the class was basically a 2 hour conversation on the most basic principles covered in Torts, I was surprised at the difficulty of the questions herein!)
Partnerships (2.5 Hours) and Check Point Quiz: 62% (I will openly confess, I was not at my best here… the tiredness coming on too strong. Just in that last sentence, I had to rewrite 3 words as I typed them wrong! So I don’t feel like my score is an appropriate example of what I know, unfortunately.)

To end on a few weird thoughts: Probably because I’m doing this so late into the night…

There is always a point in the late evenings or early mornings (depending on how you wish to label those hours) where “Aoife” invades my thoughts. Where I’ll take five minutes to scour facebook, Prosebox, legal search… and try to get a sense of how she is doing. If she’s alive. If she’s married or has kids. All of that made more interesting as I now have an unconfirmed address… an unconfirmed address that is close to where I live! But… how would I even deal with that information? Show up at this unconfirmed address, knock on the door- if it isn’t her, apologize and disappear… if it is her… then what? “Hey, I know you stopped returning my calls and e-mails about a decade ago but I saw that you lived here and wanted to say hi!” Really?

Also, this late at night, something jumps into my mind and sets up shop like a tumor. It is funny because this thought pops up no matter what but… added to “Aoife” thoughts… it pops up more insistently. Dancing is awesome to me. I’d honestly still be dancing if the Fibro hadn’t gotten so bad and if I had more time. Granted, Omaha has zero dance clubs… John Taffer even did a bar rescue in the city and said, “There are no dance clubs here; you turn this place into a dance club- you are gonna clean up!” And the bar refused. So… granted. WHERE I am- no dancing. HOW I am- dancing possible but limited. All that being said… I still thought I’d wind up with a dancer. And I thought I had. I mean, I met my wife through mutual friends (as she demands we say it) but honestly- I met her at a dance club… I approached her without knowing who she was because of how she was dancing. A lot of our pre-dating interactions were via Dance Club. Dance kind of plays a lot of how we got together. And after we got together… my then-girlfriend(now wife) still did dance clubs a lot or would hit the Tae Kwon Do practice three times a week. Now? No dancing, no TKD. This isn’t me being an asshole saying “Where did my hot wife go?” because Lord knows my appearance has changed a lot in the last ten years as well. This is mostly me wondering why she doesn’t dance, doesn’t TKD, doesn’t do the physical things she once enjoyed. Her response to TKD? She hems and haws and simply states that she wouldn’t have time to get into it. Her response to dancing? There’s no time and no place to do so. I know I use the same excuses all the time about not having time to do things.... but I’m working, studying for the bar exam, and looking for work. When she uses “no time” as her go-to excuse (for everything from social events to hygiene) I kind of fall back on the asshole mental concept of… what does she have going on that is so time consuming? A job she hates, but won’t leave and won’t look for better. And chores around the house that she refuses to allow me to take care of.

‘Nother Fun Video.... actually, ‘nother vid from Axis of Awesome. Though I’ve never read Game of Thrones and haven’t seen the show… though I’ve never read Hunger Games and haven’t seen the movies… I do really like this: