Entry 15-02.01.32 in Book Two: The Fifteenth Year of the Third Millennium of the Common Era

After another night of struggling to sleep, I awoke to a freezing apartment and a foot of snow. The heater is broken, but not broken so much so that the office will repair it. Essentially, it is a sensor issue… so every ninety minutes or so, I have to get up… walk over to the furnace… remove the cover plate… and blow on the flame until it ignites the system. The only major drawbacks of this are (1) it is irritating as hell and (2) long periods away (like sleep or errands) means that the apartment is super cold upon return!

Yesterday, a friend of mine helped me understand a big aspect of the Bar Exam that (at least at present) makes me a little more relaxed. He passed the bar last time but still sent me this: You’ll be eternally behind on bar prep because it’s near impossible to master all of the concepts. Super frustrating feeling. Keep plugging away friend.
So, that helps. I mean… obviously, I’m going to work my ass off and try to get as much done as inhumanly possible!! But… in January alone, I did 117 hours of studying. Granted, that isn’t an “epic” amount.... but that is still a lot of studying. And… I have no doubt that I’ll get in at least another 176 hours, if not more. Likely, a lot more.

Before writing about the study steps I took today… here is a picture of my brave little January Pencil. When I started, it was a fresh and brand new little pencil dude… but after note taking, essay prep, and multiple choice practice… it’s all tuckered out.

Started out the day on paperwork and quizzes for a change. While it is a good idea for purposes of exam prep… not a good idea for my ego. Groggy and sleepy, I doubted almost every answer I put down and my results were subpar. The experience definitely ignites the anger response in anticipation of poor results on the exam. Yeah, I’ve got time to study. Yes, I am absolutely going to use that time to study and study hard. But… if after all of this hard work, I still fail? I don’t know which is more likely to explode- my anger or my sorrow. Of course… if I pass, I’ll explode with joy and dancing and celebrating… I’d like that. But… my current results on practice exams doesn’t exactly make that outcome seem likely.

At posting, I’ve already got 9 hours under my belt for the day. Two quiz practices with answer rundowns and assistance, and a four hour Constitutional Law Video. If possible, I want to finish up another round of quiz practices w/answer rundowns and finalize a Check Point Quiz tonight. That will likely take me to somewhere between 10 and 15 hours for the day. It is funny… I’m not actually upset about missing the Super Bowl in order to study. I’m partially unhappy I don’t get to catch the Puppy Bowl but… it isn’t a big deal. Ironically, strangely, probably digustingly… I’m upset that I don’t get to masturbate. Y’see, my wife has the next few days off back-to-back and she’s ragging… so, even if there was a possibility of interaction (of course, there wouldn’t be) it still couldn’t happen. So… I would have preferred to take some time to “take care of that” going into the next several days… but, yes, that is how focused I am on trying to pass the bar.... if it didn’t fit into the schedule, it didn’t fit into the schedule.... just keep studying and try to fit it in at some later point.