Entry 15-01.25.24 in Book Two: The Fifteenth Year of the Third Millennium of the Common Era

6:32 am
This morning, I woke up drenched in sweat and shivering. Could be a fever, could be a natural reaction to sleep temperature vs awake temperature. The good news is I was up around 6 so I could start studying. I also made a very hot cup of cider… but is too hot. Cannot drink now. Oh, interesting… unfortunate… awkward thing....... feverish means uber horny. Even if I’m not sick, my body somehow weighs “sick feeling” with “likelihood of actually being sick” and if the body discovers that it is even fractionally more likely that I am honestly sick.... it starts releasing sexy fun time ideas, thoughts, and impulses. The current one? I have this impulse to find a 40 year old (or older) red haired cougary woman and just enjoy the day. First potentially ill sexy thought.

11:38 am
Yeesh… conflicting physical inputs make the body thing weird. I’ve got on sweatpants, a sweatshirt, and I am wrapped in a blanket… yet I’m still cold. But apparently, warm enough that I keep drifting off. Which is funny because… as the videos play, there is all possibility that I am memorizing them in my sleep… but I can’t rely on that, so I’ll eventually need to re-watch the videos I am falling asleep in front of.

1:03 pm
Still don’t know if I’m actually sick or not. Still cold, but it is winter so that should be expected, right? Belly feels ooky, but maybe that means I need some food. Even though I’ve slept through (too much) of my video… if I didn’t feel compelled to rewatch due to wanting to do things right… today I’ve already gotten through 2 full classes. ::sigh:: Work wasted as I need to redo. But… to best keep me from wasting more time… I think I may take a break now to eat, work out, and bathe. As tight and sore as my body is right now (causation confusion… maybe I feel sick because my body is so tight, maybe my body is so tight because I’m sick)… but as tight as my body is, I may just take a tiny bit longer of a break so that I can take a hot bath.... try to let the water force my muscles and fibers to relax.

5:02 pm
Phone call from my supervisor in Corrections. They need me to take two shifts this week because nobody else is available. No worries… a few hours won’t kill me and might really help kick me in the butt (and get me moving).

6:05 pm
Break for scheduling; updating where I am/where I want to be/where I need to be… making sure to specifically write in things like Work Out and Don’t Forget to Eat and Get A Dr’s Appointment. It is terrible but I am absolutely to the point where if I don’t specifically make time for it… I may forget to do it completely.

7:25 pm
Cooking Pizza for dinner while trying to take notes on Torts Video. This is the end of my Sunday Run Day; where I have to get at least a certain bare minimum done… if I finish this video and the questions that follow it before I stop for the night; I’ll feel okay about what I’ve done this week and what I have ahead of me next week.

Which… btw… is the Mid Term. The middle point 6 hour “How’re things going” quiz. I’m not freaked (I mean… yeah, a 6 hour test bugs me but… it is all in preparation for a 3 day test)… but I’m not freaked because, traditionally, students don’t do super well. It is designed that way. It is the “26 Days Left, How Can You Focus on Weak Spots?” kind of test. Hopefully, things go acceptably, though. I can’t quite shake the feeling that, though I’ve studied more and worked harder this time… I still just have this sinking feeling that I won’t pass. Not like a “freak omg” feeling… but just this near prescient feeling. It is a bit unnerving.