Motherhood in Inside My Head

I cannot see why a woman would choose to have more than one child. I live my day in 45 minute - 2 hour (if I’m lucky) increments. I am trying to manage on 4 - 5 hours of interrupted sleep. I don’t shower until the evening (if I’m really lucky). I haven’t dyed my hair which I need to do desperately. I haven’t worn makeup in I don’t know how long. I spend my day miserable and depressed that yet another day is passing and nothing seems to be getting better. I’m on day number 7 of Zoloft because I can’t take joy in my newborn son. I cannot understand why someone would choose to do this more than once.