Beyond Sleep Deprived in Inside My Head

The baby has been up since 6pm crying. I’ve fed him for hours, changed diapers, swaddled, rocked, cooed and cuddled. Mike and I are fighting because he can’t comfort or feed him and he feels useless. All I want to do is go the fuck to sleep. This medication takes two weeks to work. I’m literally going to go fucking insane by then. I’m about two minutes from shutting the door of the nursery, putting in some ear plugs, and just let the kid scream his head off. I don’t know what to do or how to comfort this child. I do not know how to be a mother.