Relaxing at home. in Since OD is shutting down....

Yesterday kinda sucked until about 2pm as I had to wait for the Fedex guy to bring my cast iron skillet that I don’t even like :( I’m not going to bother sending it back because it’s super heavy so it would cost way too much in shipping. I went out to eat with my friend, then got groceries at Walmart and then she came over and hung out for awhile with me while I prepared my stew and then we just watched tv and talked. I like having even one friend that comes over that doesn’t have kids. I like kids but it’s nice to have adult time too.

I slept like a rock last night and it was super nice. I plan to get a nap in today as well. This is gonna be kind of a stressful week financially because I need to make enough for car payment, gym membership and cell phone bill. I really don’t want to work 12-8 pm 2 days in a row but I need the money so fucking bad. I may not though depending on my schedule with my new job. I’m just stressed about money and worried that I won’t come up with enough. I wonder if it’s because I spent too much lately but it’s more that I haven’t made a lot lately too. I’m also going to be super stoked when I don’t have car payments anymore as that will help make things easier because I won’t be in such a crunch to pay everything else. I’m grateful I don’t have a light bill right now so that kinda helps too.

I just ate some of my stew (that turned out absolutely perfect) and then had french toast. Not diet food at all but I wanted them soooo freaking bad. It’s my day off and I just want to take time away from my diet. I’m also stressed about money. I think it’s just bullshit that even though I have a job, I still have to worry about paying all my bills. We just haven’t been making the same money as before and it’s definitely showing. My bank account has depleted like a mofo and there’s things that I have to pay in the next day or two that can’t wait until I get paid again. I also have to wait and see if my rent will go down because if not, my bank account is going to be completely wiped out.

My job makes me so fucking glad I’m getting into something else. I’m so angry what I’ve had to sacrifice for what little I’m paid and I can’t help but be bitter. I am just glad that I’ve finally found something that will work with my school schedule, isn’t physically hard and pays good hourly. I will not feel bad at all when I tell my current job that I need to decrease my hours because I’m just so fucking over that place and how hard I’ve worked and it was all for nothing.

I know that financially I will be okay. I might actually pay everything tomorrow because I have enough in my account and then just hope I make enough over the next few days to put it all back in my account.

Anyways, gonna watch tv.