Breech in Inside My Head

I went for my standard weekly appointment today and was told out of the blue that the baby is now breech. For the past month the baby was in a head-down position, ready to go. Now all of a sudden the baby is turned. The OBGYN offered to do an ECV, but gave me very little information on it since he’s generally not the one that does them. The OBGYN that will be doing it tomorrow is actually my regular OBGYN. She’s very calm and competent and I like her a lot. I was told that she would call me back today to answer my questions, but apparently she was busy with other patients/procedures and never did. So I’m scheduled for this procedure that I know very little about and still have questions.

I spoke to my mother who agreed that I should show up for the procedure, but not allow them to do anything until I speak to the doctor. The risks of an ECV seem relatively low, but the risks of a hysteroscopy are also low, and I ended up with a uterine perforation. Plus there’s no guarantee that if the ECV works that the baby won’t flip back to breech. I had to run home after the appointment to finish packing my bag in case this procedure puts me in early labor. I don’t really want a c-section, but I’m also not too keen on this ECV idea.

I am terrified of losing this baby. It was hard enough dealing with a blighted ovum with the last pregnancy. I’ve seen this baby move on ultrasound, I’ve heard its heart beat, and I’ve felt it move. I am not emotionally strong enough to survive if it died. I’m beyond scared. This wasn’t how I pictured the end of this pregnancy. I can’t lose this baby.