ugly.... in A Day in the Life of Me

as in my mood of late. I hate everything going on. I have no time to do anything, and when I try to it gets ruined somehow. I have had 1 day off in the last month, and yet I’m still scrapping the bottom of the paycheck barrel. I try so hard to not touch the savings, but sometimes need to, and always try to put back in from my pay what I have had to borrow, but have sadly been watching it dwindle despite all efforts. I hate the upcoming holiday as I can not do as much as I would like to do. I haven’t even been able to buy presents for my niece and nephew this year, and can not afford to go home to see my folks as previously mentioned in the last entry, and to top it off now, I feel even worse about it as Dad is sick. Mind you, he hasn’t been complaining as much as I feared about us not being home, and on Saturday we got a delivery from them via the shuttle of frozen food stuffs and presents in a cooler. I am sending it back tomorrow on the same shuttle refilled with some presents and a goodie basket for them.
I am not sinking in to depression yet, but am still waiting.
M is driving me crazy with all her plans of dragging us to there new place for xmas and I really do not want to go. We went for dinner sunday, and her son was throwing a major fit over the food, and was so embarrassing when she was trying to talk to the kitchen staff over the “issue” that I do not want to be anywhere near him, let alone the comment he made about how everyone in nova scotia are nothing but “plaid wearing idiots” and how the “quality of restaurant food sucks” compared to Toronto. Then there was the “hormones” comment he made on the way home about his friends pregnant wife who was the one that suggested the place we went too.
its 1am and D is currently out with said son helping with some moving, and that’s another thing grating on my nerves. he was up at 830 this morning to get ready to go help move some stuff and they didn’t even call until 1230, then didn’t pick him up till 1. I don’t mind that he’s helping them, but when I have to work all day and have the shitty day I had, I would have liked to of come home to my husband.
omg this day. I couldn’t wait for it to be over… go to work in not in the best of moods, then a customer injured herself, AND my fav pair of black dress pants ripped in the process of trying to help her and they are unrepairable…
screw you Monday, I’m glad its done. I’m also over December and the holidays can go get screwed too, I no longer care. Only highlight to this year was our wedding day.
I want to get D a few more things for xmas, and don’t know if I can, and also want to get us a little meal for the day as well. I want a nice quiet “holiday” just me, him, and the cat.
Oh also at dinner yesterday, I mentioned going to see my uncles on xmas day, and she’s all like “But we were gonna do this and this and then go here for that”… grrrrr