Holy shit I was tired. in Since OD is shutting down....

It’s been a very long week. I’ve been at work until at least midnight all week and all I wanted was to sleep today but my brother wanted me to come for Thanksgiving. I ate like a fat kid loves cake and everything he made tasted incredible. It was so worth it to go over there. I stayed about 4 hours, basically until I couldn’t keep my eyes open any longer and then I came home and passed out hard on the couch for about an hour an half. It’s now almost midnight and I’m very annoyed I’m awake as I don’t want to sleep all day tomorrow to make up for it. I took some tylenol pm and I’m now just waiting for that to kick in.

My anatomy test is a take home test so I plan to get that and the packet done tomorrow so I don’t have to worry about it for the rest of the weekend because I’m working a double on Saturday and I’d like to be able to just relax and get some cleaning done Sunday. I do want to see my niece a little bit too. I got to pick her up from daycare before work yesterday which was nice. Even if I can only see her for 10 minutes a day, I’ll take it. She was so happy I picked her up and hugged me bye before I left. It was so cute.

Work has been going ok. I put up with WAY more bullshit being a manager though. I get sick of putting up with attitudes and doing what I can to keep everyone happy. It’s a job in itself and very draining. I’ve lost 4 pounds since Monday and I’m guessing it’s not just because of watching my carb intake. Being a manager means constantly walking and always being on the go. I love it except by 9pm, I’m very dehydrated and drink a shit ton of tea and water. Which isn’t a bad thing but it’s like if I don’t drink enough, it will drive me crazy. I drink probably close to a gallon before I leave work which is probably helping me lose weight too.

I’m out of my diet drink and was gonna get some on Wednesday but the place that sells it was fucking closed! I was super annoyed because I had looked online before I drove over there and sure as shit, I get there and they are closed! They should learn to update the damn website! I was so mad that I wasted my time because I had so much other shit to do before going to work and my emotions were running hard because I was stressed out and very tired. I was gonna have someone I work with get me some from the gas station but it was way more expensive so I’ll just wait until Monday, provided they will be open!

I feel pretty good about things, other than being very tired. Work is going alright, weight loss is finally starting to happen and I only have about 2 and a half weeks left of the semester. I know I failed another test on Wednesday but at least I got some points which is better than none. I’m just gonna be glad when I get a break from school. I just feel absolutely drained and it sucks that there isn’t more hours in the day. I also need for my boss to stop scheduling me to close every night that I work because by the end of the week, I’m ready to collapse. I was so happy to get home last night and go to sleep! I was so glad that I got to sleep in and didn’t have to do anything too strenuous today because I wouldn’t have been able to otherwise!

I also have my dental appointment on Monday that I’m going to need to cancel because I can’t miss my class as she won’t accept late homework because it’s a take home test. I would love to get my cleaning out of the way because I was due for it a couple of months ago, but I’m gonna have to put it off a little bit longer because I don’t want to keep missing that class and have my attendance affect my grade more than it already has. I just hate being in a time crunch all the fucking time, it gets so stressful and overwhelming.

My friend from work wanted to hang out tonight and called a couple of times but I physically was just too exhausted to do anything. I feel bad because we had planned to hang out but I was just too fucking tired. Yet another reason why I hate making plans. I hate knowing I have made a commitment to do something because then when it’s supposed to happen, I really don’t want to! Ugh, I know that’s stupid but my life is so busy and it’s nice to just have time to chill.

I’ve started taking flaxseed a couple of days ago and low and behold, I got my period today! It was only 37 days late! I don’t know if taking the flax seed helped or not because I’m going to keep taking it and see if I get my period more on time next month and if not, then I’ll go to the gyno but I’d like to try this first. I’ve heard amazing things about flax seed and I think it’s already helping me with blood sugars too.

I might color my hair tomorrow. I have some dye and I’d like to get it done because my roots look awful again.

Ok, I’m gonna try to sleep now.