sigh in --

My kids are asleep before 10:30 and I want to sleep too but I can’t because I am too agitated from sexual frustration.
I am starting to feel resentful and I hate that. I wish I didn’t. I wish I didn’t even have a sex drive. It would be much easier to be apathetic.

Sometimes I feel like I don’t even want to because I am so annoyed about it, which obviously doesn’t help.

I guess it’s better than being insatiable like I was before I had children. that would be impossible to maintain. it was even before I had kids. it was always annoying that no one wanted to as much as I did.

I guess I should just do more homework.