Stupid people without a clue - 06/03/2002 in Opendiary Archive

Yes, they’ve broken up again. What stupid prats are they? Could they not just make up their minds? Apparently not…

Why does this annoy me as much as it does. I don’t really know. It shouldn’t really bug me. Sure I have to play the good samaritan but it’s not like a major chore or anything.

What annoys me is the futility of their situation. They place themselves in this, nigh on every week. They obviously don’t know what they’re doing, they haven’t got a clue what each other wants, and most importantly, they don’t care enough.

Despite this harsh, cynical exterior (yeah right, everyone keeps saying I’m “fluffy”), I do actually believe in true love. I believe it’s possible to love one person enough that you know their worst flaws. The worst things that run through their mind, but it’s ok. There must be a level of acceptence there that denotes true love.

My friends want true love, but they both think it’s just going to drop into their laps. They’re completely unwilling to compromise any of their precious idealisms for the simple factor of anothers happiness.

He’s the worse of the two of course. The man pretends to be so moral, so upstanding. I had a great deal of respect for him, for a while, because I believed he had an element of his personality that I’ve been trying to get for years. Self control.

But there is a difference between control and repression. He lies to himself, and to her. He pretends everythings alright as long as it all goes his way, but as soon as it doesn’t he is unable to cope. He can’t control who he is. I’ve lost all respect for him because he doesn’t even have the gall to admit he can’t keep control.

The duplicity of those two astounds me, and I have to say I find it disgusting that they can’t even talk through their problems. That’s not a relationship, it’s a farce.

Er. Ramble.