I'm just awful in Journal

At being female. I need to do something about it.
I recognize it. I’m not warm or comforting or anything. Idk what to say when people bring things up. I mean unless they directly ask or tell me, “I need advice” or “I just need you to listen”. Cool, I got that. But when I’m just doing my own thing and someone starts taking to me-someone who’s not my kid mind you- I’m just thinking what is so important that you couldn’t ask for a moment of my time first? So stuff is said, I to feel like I’m being interrupted in my task. And… I’m supposed to be interpreting this in terms of both what is needed and what perspective to view the content. But also. I’m annoyed as fuck because I’ve just been interrupted and no offense to anyone but what I was doing was probably way more important than whatever you’re taking about.
So I end up just responding only to direct questions with a one word answer.
Because, dammit. You’ve interrupted me, which says you clearly don’t respect my time, so why are you pretending to want my opinion? Is it a power move? I guess I’m too busy trying to square the circle of your currrent methodology in communication to focus too much what’s being communicated.

You know it’s sort of quite ironic. My femininity comes out erratically. I am very much a feminine woman- long hair, slender, quiet, cook, raise kids, garden, etc etc.
But I open mouth and do you know what comes out?
No, not curses or R-rated stuff. It’s worse than that, I’m afraid.
Philosophy.
The worst stuff to ever have taken root in the mind of one of the female persuasion.
Did you know that peopledon’t actually want to know how to fix their problems? They already know how. They just don’t like the answer, or, they really like the excuses that having that problem gives them.

I think I’m learning. Maybe it’s slow. But I am.
Someone spouting philosophy is insufferable. It really is. How many actual philosophers have died of old age?