ENTRY 103: Snippets in Much Ado About Nothing

I slept like shit last night so today I am tired to the point of visible bags under my eyes and I probably look homeless. So, not sure what or how much I’ll write today.

• But I do come here to share/vent on annoyances and this morning already started off with a big one. I make sure to e-mail everything I have to Defendants for Discovery before Trial. My assistant sends them all of the reports, I send them all of the videos. That is how it is done but, of course, I’m dealing with Pro Se Defendants… laypeople whose only encounter with the law comes from their own crimes or television and movies. But some things are… painstakingly stupid. This morning, a woman comes to the front desk all huffy and pissy that she didn’t receive everything she was expecting in our discovery exchange. My assistant checks and- confirms that reports were sent. I check and- confirm that videos were sent. The lady gets indignant, smug, and says “I didn’t receive a 911 call, so stop hiding things from me!” HEAD: DESK. Lady, you were there. I know you don’t think anyone has jurisdiction over you and nobody gets to tell you what to do but.... think back… review the reports you were sent… WHY WOULD THERE BE A 911 CALL FOR A TRAFFIC STOP?!?! FIRST LINE OF THE REPORT: “I pulled Defendant vehicle over for expired registration”… and you think, what? That somebody called 911 to report your expired registration? The fuck, people? The conspiracy theory, SOVCIT addled, narcissistic ignorance that I am required to put up with every day here now. It’s ridiculous!

• I didn’t share this on Saturday/Sunday but I should have. I had a dream about not knowing my lines already. This may seem like a common enough thing but I assure you, I rarely have these kinds of dreams. But what made this one unique is that it was not a Show where suddenly I forget my lines. It was a rehearsal but I was so flummoxed by Mark Hamill “stopping by to check things out” that I couldn’t remember a single line!! That was the dream! lol.

• I generally and genuinely don’t like days like today. Because I slept like absolute shit, I gave serious consideration to not coming in today. Because I only have one trial and it is scheduled for 1:30, I gave serious consideration to coming in super late this morning. Ultimately, I didn’t. I am gone on Friday, so I’ll need coverage in the morning anyway this week. And there is stuff I need to be doing to prepare for other things coming up in the future. But I’m just… really tired and having a hard time focusing on anything.

• The Director still hasn’t sent an e-mail regarding first rehearsals or Cast List. Which makes me nervous. I know she was opening a show this weekend and to give her time but I cannot tell you how excited and worried I am about this part and about our little troupe doing this show well. There are 72 days before we open. And I am going to be gone (potentially) for up to 6 of those days. Arguably meaning that I only have 66 days for rehearsal. And since it is HIGHLY unlikely we’ll rehearse today or tomorrow since no e-mail has been sent… that means I have only 64 days of rehearsal. So yeah… excited and worried.

• Paranoia can be catching but it can be useful. I know I bought tickets to Hadestown but I do not recall if they are in my name or Hermia’s. I called the venue today and they said they have nothing under my name. But that third party sites can’t release tickets until 72 hours before a show, so it may just be that I went through a 3rd Party. So now I’m trying to scan ALL e-mails to see if/where/who may have even sent any kind of confirmation and I need to go to the bank because the Banking App won’t let me review transactions from before October.
  It took me my whole lunch hour but I did find the transactional banking proof that I paid for two tickets to Hadestown for Saturday, April 12! The company who took the money didn’t have a name but where a name would be on the banking statement was a phone number, so you’re damned right I instantly called it! They confirmed that they do have tickets for me which will be e-mailed to me on Friday, April 11th. ‘bout gave myself a fucking heart attack!

• I wanted to share one of the best parts of yesterday’s date. It’s small and it’s weird but honestly- that’s why it should be remembered and remarked upon. I’ll share how it went and then explain. We were talking about Dungeons and Dragons and homebrew versus module and that kind of thing and she asked if I ever ran a homebrew game, what setting would I use. I know the answer to this question as I tried to write this once but… it could be a blazing red flag to a person. I mentioned how this could get me in trouble and asked if she’d ever watched “High School DxD”. She said that she had, but not in that disgusted way I often expect. And then agreed that the lore was very cool- houses and kingdoms and Angels and Gods and Demons and Humans and Evil Chess Pieces and Rating Games. MASSIVE sigh of relief. She said that her perfect Homebrew setting would be Alice in Wonderland.... which is funny as that was Nancy’s. Nancy and I shared a great deal about Through the Looking Glass and that whole world.
  NOW… for those who DO NOT know why I was so tense about naming that anime, allow me to explain: It is… exactly what too many people think Anime is. The main character’s motivations are to have a Harem, his special attack is to shred off women’s clothes via magic, and the entire thing (from a very surface level) is entirely about appreciating boobs. I will end this portion with a small video to demonstrate. But yeah. That is one where a NON Anime watching girl would be confused, an Anime watching girl would be irate or deeply put off. But she actually got it which.... is wild. Because while what I said is true… the Anime is also about discovering a new world (Hell) and how powers are bestowed and used, and it is about protecting your friends (Asia) against all manner of terrible things, and it is about the War between Heaven and Hell and… there are a lot of honestly good things that are intriguing or interesting in the Anime.... just.... there is a lot of Boob Harem stuff intrinsically entangled into all of it.
  

• Hopefully, this doesn’t come off as petty but when I was scouring my banking records during Lunch a specific and interesting trend presented. I was getting carry out, take away, and delivery a lot more often when I was seeing Hermia. And it wasn’t always the 3 of us… but also often was. Lately, I haven’t been helicopter parenting over my incoming and outgoing as much and it doesn’t move much day to day, week to week, or month to month. ANYMORE. Back then? WOW! I saw, and it has made, a massive difference!

• I do things like this too often to not mention when I do one. The curiosity of who has been cast as Beatrice is getting to me, lol. Because I do so have a preference and while I can do the role without my friend opposite me, I would rather do the role with my friend opposite me. So, I brought her profile up to message her, typed two sentences, and thought better of it- erasing them and putting the phone away. I do things like that a lot. I’ll discover the cast assignments when I discover the cast assignments and knowing now or then will change very little how we are to sally forth.

• Tonight there is a Blue Dot meeting. I’m very on the fence about going because Nala should get some Dog Park Time; but all the same… Nala has been getting a lot of Dog Park Time lately. And if I am going to send an e-mail bitching out my County and State Democratic Party… I just feel more of a responsibility like I should go.

• How fitting! I began my day with a confounding traffic issue and I end my day with something similar. A man was RADAR’d at 76 mph in a 55 mph zone. The officer cuts him a brake, writes the ticket for 70 in a 55 because it will protect the guy’s license. Guy throws a fucking tantrum that I will not agree to dismiss the ticket if he takes an online safe driver’s course. DUDE: I have seen your driving record. EVEN IF WE DID THAT, which we do not, you would not qualify. Enjoy your useless tantrum!