Failed another test, snow, didn't go to class. in Since OD is shutting down....

OK so apparently I failed yet ANOTHER Anatomy test! I am so beyond pissed right now. I seriously thought I did decent but I guess not. Sometimes I wonder if that teacher just has it out for me. It’s just crazy how I keep getting F’s on tests like I have been!!! OMG, I am so fucking irritated with that class that I could scream! I’m probably going to have to take it over and if I do, I’m going to request a different teacher because she’s really hard to keep up with because she talks way too fast! I missed that class this morning (actually it’s going on right now) as I have had horrible diarrhea all morning and have even had a couple of accidents on my way to the bathroom! I’m really starting to get worried now. I was scared I would have an accident at school, so scared that I chose not to go! It’s also very ugly outside today and I’d rather just stay in and hibernate until I have to go to work and I’m also hoping road conditions will have improved by this afternoon when I have to get my ass up and go.

I haven’t slept well at all because I kept waking up with a horrible stomachache, so bad that I didn’t want to move! Like, this is the absolute worst! I’ve never had nausea last this long and I’m probably not even going to eat today. I know that I need to just wait this shit out another couple of days but my patience is growing thinner every single day! I was really hoping I was going to be okay by this morning and it didn’t work out that way for me! I was burping and farting like crazy since yesterday afternoon which I took as a good sign that I was finally going to get back to being myself and no, this morning has been awful and I’m just getting so frustrated! I’m seriously so fucking sick of not feeling good! This shit has been going on for a week and I’m ready to come unglued! I mean, this is really fucking bad. I really don’t want to end up going to the doctor because I’m broke as fuck but if this keeps up, I’m not going to have a choice. I’m grateful that I don’t have school tomorrow (Veteran’s Day) so I can plan to sleep in and then study for my test on Thursday for Med Term.

It’s super frustrating about my test. I thought when I walked out of there on Friday that I probably did okay as a lot of it made sense to me but I guess I was wrong. Sometimes college really pisses me off. I really don’t think I’m as stupid as these tests grade would suggest and now I have to worry if I’m going to pass this class at all and if not, if financial aid is going to pay for me to take it again. It’s so stressful! I just think it’s bullshit because I didn’t think I did that bad but apparently I did. I just wish I was smarter than this or something. This shit really gets to me!

I just peeked outside and it looks ugly as fuck. Just snowy, windy and very cold. I still don’t have a winter coat which sucks but thankfully I do have some warm hoodies and I’m not outside much for my job. I’m definitely not ready for it to be winter yet. I’m pissed at myself for not working out all summer and now I get to figure out how to go swim and whatever at the gym without getting sick. I am however, hoping work is going to be plenty busy and that tips will be very amazing. Normally when the weather sucks, the tips are better but it’s kinda hard to say because people are really stingy around here too.

God, I feel like shit. My stomach is just killing me. It’s just crazy how I feel totally fine and then the next thing I know, it feels like someone has punched me in the gut or I swallowed a fucking piano. I really don’t know how much longer I am going to be able to deal with this, especially considering it’s already been a week but I’m going to hope it’s gonna end in the next day or two.

I’m gonna lay down and try to feel better.