No Plot Twist Yet in Current Events

The plot at work only thickened a little bit. They rekeyed our building. They came and cleared out one of the offices and there was a job posting for the secretary position. In case we don’t know the score, the other week we came in and were told that our Wellness Director and Youth Director were on leave. This is just after the facilitator of the girl version of my program quit. The secretary packed up her things that day as well. We lost four big personalities and morale has been very low. We are grieving our loss. We are confused, etc.

Our Wellness Director, Dana, I did a wellness check on FB and she said she would tell me everything. She said that she is on suspension and will be back next Monday if she is returning. She is the face of the organization. She is the heart and soul. We miss her dearly.

Words cannot express how messy the woman I shared an office space with was. You could barely move. I had to dig out her desk. She is a hoarder and it didn’t just affect her office space. All storage areas are still overflowing with her crap. Her side of the office was much bigger so once she left, I switched sides. We have no leadership, who was going to stop me? Everyone was so grateful that I did because it meant that her shit was going to get tidied up. We are assuming that her program is being cut from the organization. It is obviously paused as there is no one to run it. HR and the woman acting as Program Director, the one shaking the organization up, came in on Monday and cleared out some stuff from her office. I have yet to meet this woman as she only comes on Mondays when my team is not there.

We had to get some things clarified from her as she put a bunch of obstacles in my team’s way. I have ADHD dysfunction around my work emails during these strange times so it is extremely painful to open them. She was praising my team in our last email. Basically, we are getting everything we want we just have to take the long way to get it. The Elder that they wanted us to cut ties with, I got my coordinator to advocate for him. They have a list of Elders we can work with so we just need to get him on that list. This will take a while for his background checks but we got the go-ahead. He has been a huge part of our program so this is a huge win.

My depression hit me yesterday. I saw it coming. I fucked around and found out. I messed with my body’s metabolism and ate bread, lol. Yes. That is what happened. I had to do a one-on-one yesterday and I didn’t think I would have it in me. I basically turned into an iPad mom and let my mentee play video games the whole time. It was our first one-on-one ever so… I’m just building the relationship, let’s just go with that. We played video games and watched Reservation Dogs. Today we have a small group and are doing an anti-bullying lesson. I don’t have to be alone so if my depression hits me, I can just dissociate.

I set up our office yesterday. It is so spacious. It is so clean and organized. It has a lounge chair that I couldn’t move over. It became the hangout spot yesterday. They all want me to get plants… like I wasn’t already planning for it. I finally have a window.

Speaking of plants, I am going to get my coordinator a birthday card for everyone to sign and then see who can pitch in to get him flowers. His birthday is in two days.

I am skipping the gym today, I think. I finally went back yesterday and did chest. Today is back day. Might just go swimming instead. Or I just might not do anything and relax before work. I have a late start. I’ll probably do some running around for work, to be honest. I need to bank some hours so I can do a community walk tomorrow.

My coordinator was very relieved that I took Saturday off. I think he just needed proof that I am a human. You never take time for yourself. He said. He was glad to hear how good for my soul it was to unburden myself that day. He took lots of pictures of our boys ice fishing. I am sorry I missed it. I didn’t think they would be into it but they were beside themselves the whole time. We are going again the weekend after this one. My coordinator was talking about me skipping it and doing a one-on-one with a newcomer or something. I can’t remember, I dissociated.

On with my day then.