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I’m up at 2am worrying about the future. I copied and pasted the last entry into a message to my girls (Dest and Lyndsey) along with a note that it’s from an entry here and that I was not going to be able to go to karaoke Saturday and that I would be working or sleeping till May 19th.... that I can not commit to anything at all. No game nights or hang outs.... no meet for lunch or could you pick Lou up.... my time and money are on lock.... and the previous entry to explain why.

I’m not happy about it but it feels like the only thing to do for now. Jake came home and went right to bed so we didn’t have any discussions....I also didn’t sleep with him because he went to bed so early (seriously like 4pm).

Dest just messaged me saying “I’ll miss you but I understand. Life has to be dealt with.”

I need to see if I can get a few more winks before I get up to go to work.