Gender of my baby,healing my past in Life of a Mama Cat

 My husband and I never been the type to have big parties but my best friends want to do a gender reveal. I don't like being out on the spot because of my anxiety. My friends wanted me to send them the gender and me not know. I thought about it and decided if I got to have a c section for this pregnancy and have a high risk pregnancy I plan to do things my way. Today I wanted a girl to discover I am having a boy. Honestly I am thrilled the genetic testing is all low risk.

I wanted to name the child Leo after my father middle name because I promised I would never call my child his first name. My husband wants to know why would I name my child after one of my dad's names even though Dad was abusive to me most of my life. I decided to break family curses. I am not what my dad put me through. I forgave my dad when I closed his casket.. dad passed of a heart attack but that doesn't stop me from loving him and forgiving him. Leo you were often misunderstood and I often feared you beating me,slicing my tires and turning off the water to my house to control me but my love for you is stronger than your painful past.

 Will I actually make him Leo? I have no idea my husband is begging me to choose another name but to me my child's middle name will always be Leo. I miss my dad. He taught me fear yes but he taught me the heart can heal and I can fix what was once broken. Naming my child's middle name Leo is my way of telling the universe forgiveness is more powerful than my past. Hate stops here.

 I got to figure out my child's first name. I have no idea. I guess I got a lot of names to look at.