Lonely Day in Current Events

Fuck me? Fuck you! Was the vibe about life on Saturday. After I called in, it felt like I had dropped all the cares in the world. I hadn’t felt so alive and unburdened in years. I tossed caution to the wind and just did whatever I wanted. I went on a huge shopping splurge. It didn’t exactly break the bank, yet.

I had bread and desserts and got all fat and sassy.

My sister’s obsessive controlling disorder, she is starting to nag at me. I might need to take a break from visiting them. Well, my plan is to start taking her kids out. I’ll call her out on her attitude eventually. She is high-strung because she keeps trying to control every single thing. Her dogs and her kids are not things you can keep under control. She needs to loosen up but I know it is her anxiety. She refuses to believe that she is like the rest of us and has issues with anxiety. When she quit smoking, she had no backup plan for emotional regulation.

My other sister, I am so pissed. I learned that her apartment got broken into while she and her baby were home. She lives in the city next to ours, in the worst possible building in the worst possible neighborhood. Her failure of a man is a horrible provider. She supports everybody. They need to move. They live right next to a shelter on the block where all the violence happens. They moved into the suite next door after the break in… the previous tenants were presumed dead. Just fucking move.

I need to start planning my trip to BC to visit my brother. I am waiting to see if I survive my 6-month probation first. May 16th folks. 6 more days.

I thought it was just allergies, the last time I was sick. That was before it escalated. I fear I fell for the same thing here. It is my allergy season but I don’t recall my sinuses ever being this active. It’s dripping down my throat and making me cough. I had the worst flu in December followed by bronchitis. That was traumatic. Usually, I like being sick. It is the only time when I can do nothing and feel guilt-free about it. Then I feel reborn after. I do feel great otherwise, today.

I made my roommate and me a pizza last night, spicy perogy. I fucking missed your pizza My roommate said to me. I was thinking about that as well. When I was at my sister’s, I ate her homemade pretzels and had no reaction. I figured it was the processed mock meat that brought the pain the other day so I wanted to test it out. No. I almost threw up last night from the pain. I could barely move my legs. So… nor

I finally made it to the gym yesterday. I went in the middle of the afternoon. Leg day is easy to do when it is too busy there. Daylight savings is throwing me off so I basically slept the whole day away today. I don’t know if I will go today. It is chest day. I might just go swimming instead. Make it a cardio day. This cough will calm down and hit me again in the evening. I could just do a workout at home… I want to stay in the 5 AM club so I got to work on that today and kiss the world goodnight crazy early.

Today is a boring day and I am going to do boring stuff after I finish my boring entry. I finally have all my documents to start my taxes. It is going to be a menace, I already know it. Every single year I have to create a CRA account online because every single year they close it. Every single year I have to call them to set that up. I might as well just work around it. I remember that I mailed it out last year because NETFILE failed me. Ugh.

Other than that it is my me-day. I will do my self-care BS.