2/06/2025 in The Beginning

It has been a while since I’ve written on here. The truth is though, that nothing really exciting has been going on in my life, although I can’t say that’s a bad thing. Hopefully I’ll actually start to write on here more, which is something that I seem to say a lot.

Entering my last semester before I graduate with my B.A. Excited but nervous for the future. I applied a few months back for the M.A. program at my university for Archaeology, but I won’t know if I’ll get accepted until late this month or sometime in March. The wait has been killing me.

However, tonight while listening to music (mostly Beatles, Dylan) and while being drunk, I decided to apply for a modeling agency, only because people (both people I know and strangers) have suggested the idea to me. I don’t really think I’m that attractive but I don’t think I’m terrible either. Self-confidence is a bitch though. The worst that could happen is that the agency denies me and I would be back in the same boat as I’m in now. And besides, I can fake confidence when I need too, so I might as well try. Will I regret it in the morning? Most definitely. Perhaps it’ll work out though.

The only main concern that I have (outside of my looks, which are subjective anyways), I have no experience in acting in any sense. I was never a theater kid (looking back, I wish I got into acting when I was younger, being a lover of movies. Again, however, self-confidence and self-esteem has crippled my life many a times). However, I might as well try.

Don’t know if this entry will even make sense. My apologies. Hope you all are having a wonderful night. Peace be upon you.