Drip - 29.10.13 in Your Face

My period started today. Joy of joys! What a drag.

I have coasted through the last 2 days on the pennies left in my wallet. I am looking forward to getting paid tomorrow and getting something decent to eat, after living off the noodles and canned stews that I keep a stock of.

My heart hurts. I am sure I am just feeling emotional because of my period, but I feel really butthurt that I haven't heard from M. I sent him a 1 line email, asking if they had any snow and got nothing in reply. Maybe it's too "mundane" for him. He hasn't collected the money this wee, and I don't know what to think about that. Does it mean he's working and getting paid? Does it mean he's sick or couldn't get to an ATM? Is it a "fuck you I don't need your money"? Like I said, I have planted the seed in my brain, and I wonder if he is done with me. I need to stop thinking that way. If that was the case, he would just tell me. He's not shy about telling it like it is. I just wish I knew something of what is going on. I am refraining from contacting Tyler to ask, because it would make me feel like a psycho stalker bitch. Tyler and I have spoken online like twice in 3.5 years.

Hmmm ...

I am thankful that I am so tired lately. Well, I still can't sleep, but at least I am too tired to overthink things on most nights. Life is busy and I am glad for that.

OMG. What will I eat tomorrow? Maybe a salad! With ham! I can taste it now ... I am just dying to eat something fresh and crunchy.