Why not? in Journal

Might as well detail the hellish ordeal that it is to file for a PPO.
The county clerk is a complete joke. Spent a solid 2 hours going back and forth to get THEIR paperwork filed, which was EXACTLY THE SAME as the paperwork I downloaded and filled out ahead of time but they wouldn’t accept.
After that, the judge denied an ex parte order. So I requested a hearing. It’s set for Monday. And they want everyone to be there. So, yay<– this is sarcasm.
It’s funny how government never seems to do anything with any sort of dignity or competence. Yet they cost more than anything I could have paid for privately.
I’m almost ready to just drop it and hire someone who is private. At least I’d know I wasn’t just wasting colossal amounts of time.
I’m even wondering if the judge is capable of cognizing this matter. Hell, I wonder about most of humanity these days. But the judge affects me so it’s more personal. The brain drain is very real. IQ is rapidly falling right off a cliff. I’m really quite happy that I have taken such good care of my health. Going under the knife these days? Yeesh. I won’t consider getting on an airplane either. Everything is decaying due to sheer incompetence.
It is by design, of course.
Anywho. I need to get a witness statement that I was able to drum up into the case, somehow. You know I took a class on how to represent myself in court. Why doesn’t anything seem relevant? I’ve been learning Equity. And custom is the biggest hurdle to Equity. I can see that’s true; from the idiots in the clerks of court to their filing system; they even want to dictate how exhibits are labeled according to their habits-! Anyone passing through without much exposure to this culture would find it completely arbitrary, time consuming, and inconvenient. Private inconvenience is compensated for by public benefit which is a maxim of Equity. Well it really chaps if you know what I mean
I’m also sort of dumbfounded by the fact that a PPO hearing has the victim and the stalker in the same hearing. Like that’s not just completely assinine and bureaucratic bullshit. In no humane justice system would this ever be the case. I mean. I knew the courts were trash. It feels completely awful to rely on one.
I’m also a little amused and a little anxious that my sworn petition testimony is about to be public record. It’s very damning. But the asshole shouldn’t have done it if he didn’t want it out there. I’m also leery of entering email evidence, since he has the same emails obviously, and I really do not want my children’s names in the public. So I went through and reacted all the specific info. I’m still not sure I will submit it.
That’s another reason I can’t stand him, or really anyone blasting their kids out on the Internet. It’s wrong. It’s vile. You don’t have the child’s permission. You can’t have the child’s permission until the child is grown and can make legitimate decisions about their own publicity. He would be posting pictures and names and dates and recognizable places all over social media- and did, for a short while. Still does with BIL’s kid. Gross.