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All the stuff comes out when I get upset with him. We don’t spend nearly enough time together and it’s our choice. He bought a new video game last night at work. I hate it because I was talking about sleep being more important....forgot to specifically mention games, so we go back to that.

I said “I’m just not important enough for you to want to change things.” And “You should want to do better for that ONE.” He never says much if anything. Said whatever anytime he thought I was saying something stupid. At some point he asked me if we have ever worked on the same schedule. We have not but it wouldn’t matter (I told him this) because when he was off for 2 years with his back he would stay up all night playing video games and the same would be true. He prefers video games and sleep to my company. 2 days a week we really spend time together but it’s almost always running. We don’t do things like play games TOGETHER, get drunk TOGETHER, read the SAME books. If there were no drama in our lives outside our relationship I don’t think we would have anything to talk about.

I was drunk again before he left for work. I felt better and there was already an air of ignoring the situation. He was decently light hearted when he left. I felt better too. I was far less angry.

So, he’s in the living room playing whatever new first person shooter game just came out and I’m blogging, ripping tunes, playing games on my iPad, and then reading. I’m determined to start The Vampire Armand today but have to finish Lestat first.

I have to go count Alicen’s pills today. Urgh.

Last updated November 06, 2014